Searching

Yesterday my husband said to me
"It just seems like you are searching for something"

I think he hit the nail on the head. My problem seems to be that I am ALWAYS searching for something.  A better job first and foremost, a new adventure, an excuse to leave my job and go on a new adventure! ha!
but wait a  minute, whats wrong with that?
Should we not make it a point to keep our mind open to new opportunities, possibilities, and realities?

Seriously though. The grass is always greener right? Perfection is in the mind of the beholder.
I'm working on it.
I'm working on my employment situation, on my health (with the exception of this week because, well, chocolate), on the next adventure, and most importantly I am working on my perspective.

I have it good. I have it soooo good. So why is it not good enough?
first world problems.
I start hating myself for not being thankful enough for the things I do have, then I hate myself for hating myself because isn't that negative self talk what got me in this situation in the first place?
It's like that Dove commercial with the forensic artist.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=litXW91UauE

It's a vicious circle.

ok. Happy Things.
NPR on my drive to work
The way my dog Steve gets excited when I get home from anywhere
The way my dog Sydney does not get excited when I get home from anywhere, but she stays right by my side when I am home. She is such a brat.
The support and confidence of a good friend.
Videos of my baby nephew laughing.
Books. Not just any book. Good Books. The kind of stories that change your perspective on the world around you.
Planning a trip to Vegas for July 4th, then to Illinois to see family, and Cancun for a wedding in December.
Having the house to myself for a few hours this Friday night. This is almost as exciting as a night out on he town. You know you are an old lady when....

Goals for happiness this week. Positive self-talk
- Don't feel guilty about not wanting to exercise when it is nice and sunny outside. You are the only one judging your activity level.
-Read a book, or at least start a book that you are interested in, not one that you feel like you should read.
-Embrace the lack of routine in your day. Not every Thursday has to play out like the Thursday before it.
-Just remember that boredom is still better than being sick. Nobody likes throwing up and sleeping all day.

Honesty.Energy.Strength.Love